MEMMMBOOONNGGGG...!!!!!!!!!!

i'm in a battle.. battle with my own thoughts!! shittt.. mental breakdown.. memmmboonggg..!! sometimes this kind of thoughts, feeling, make me feels like i am a stupidO..!! are you A FOOL dear self..?? haih.. stop it.. stop it.. u know ur ownself.. u r not like that.. u r not a loser.. u r not weak.. u r strong enough, enough to stop to not to never think about something like this right??!!! please sayang please laahhh... stay the way you are.. u r the one that never know how to giv up..how to quit.. u r the one that always try to finish whatever u do whatever that already started.. but.. humm..?? i still cant find the way still cant figure it out yet how to finish this matter.. or should i just express explain telling them all the truth the real problems the stupid thoughts of mine?? what if even when i expresses everything, still nothing could be changed, and still the all the blames is all on me coz i am the one who had all of these stupid thoughts... ohhh memmmboooonnnggg!! WTF!! bye!!