From deep in my heart to my dear sys..

"Open the door" she said.. well my dear sis, i never shut the door actually, i just didnt open it so widely coz i dont want to let all people see what it is inside that room. but still, i dont even and never lock the door, and i dont even have the key, and the key might be with somebody that is around me, right here, right now. so it is his duty his responsibility, it is up to him to come to me and use the key to lock this room, so that the room could his property, so that the room could be only available for him and stay in that room forever and ever. its not me who shuts who locks the door, the thing is actually i am waiting for him to come to me with the key, so that i could feel the butterflies inside my stomach again and i'm waiting and will always waiting till that one fine day.

cinta???

Cinta.. apa itu cinta..? Cinta bukan pada wajah, kerana cantik itu pada hati dan harga diri.. bagaimane lahirnye cinta? well, cinta lahir dari satu sudut yg terpencil di dalam hati.. namun bagiku bukan mudah untuk bercinta.. bukan mudah untuk jatuh cinta.. tp walau aku susah untuk jatuh cinta, tidak dinafikan hatiku menjerit menangis dek kesunyian.. ketika hatiku menjerit, lantas aku sedar hatiku terpaut pada seseorang.. ok bye
-emma-

MEMMMBOOONNGGGG...!!!!!!!!!!

i'm in a battle.. battle with my own thoughts!! shittt.. mental breakdown.. memmmboonggg..!! sometimes this kind of thoughts, feeling, make me feels like i am a stupidO..!! are you A FOOL dear self..?? haih.. stop it.. stop it.. u know ur ownself.. u r not like that.. u r not a loser.. u r not weak.. u r strong enough, enough to stop to not to never think about something like this right??!!! please sayang please laahhh... stay the way you are.. u r the one that never know how to giv up..how to quit.. u r the one that always try to finish whatever u do whatever that already started.. but.. humm..?? i still cant find the way still cant figure it out yet how to finish this matter.. or should i just express explain telling them all the truth the real problems the stupid thoughts of mine?? what if even when i expresses everything, still nothing could be changed, and still the all the blames is all on me coz i am the one who had all of these stupid thoughts... ohhh memmmboooonnnggg!! WTF!! bye!!

DIRI INI TIDAK MENGERTI HATI SENDIRI!!

kenape kite so hard so difficult to faham dengan hati kite sendiri? kenape susah sangat, untuk faham ape yang hati kite ni nak sebenarnye? why did when someone said that "i like u, i really like u, i miss u", sehabis-habisnye hati ini menolak n mendenykan segale ape perasaan terhadap die but, whenever u saw he n that one girl slowly become rapat (erghh slowly sangat! tiba2 rapat!) with him, ur heart tetibe felt like ishkk sakit pulak hati kite.. so the question is... berhak ke kite ni nak fefeeling ssakit mcm tu? kite siape? kenape nak rase sakit? cemburu? why? he is not yours.. adekah hati ini dah terrrrrRECEIVE harapan yang si dia bg? hmmm.. but.. how can we know yang die ikhlas bile die said that i like u, i really really really really really really like you tu? actually, IF I ade BF kan, i dont really mind lah kalau die ade kawan baik perempuan, rapat ngam kamcing, tu hak die, but, haa but itu kalau that girl adelah bestfren die since long time ago, before die kenal aq lagi, the issue is, that suddenly become as bestfren forever n ever tu, IALAH, ADALAH, org yang rapat dgn aq, yg xpernah berkawan dengan die sebelum aq rapat dengan die, aq sorang ke yang rase ini adelah BULLSHIT??! errr... aq laa yg anggap diorg bff, xtaw laa kalau dah start lebih, coz aq dlu pun before die ckp die suke, started just like both of them skrang laa pun.. :) dan yg menjadi masalahnye ialah, kau jenis bile org tanye always jawab OK n dont really know how to say "I'M NOT OK!!!"..

hmmmm.. menyusahkan diri sendiri kan fikir bende mcm nih? so.. should i just do like ELSA? LET IT GO.. LET IT GOOOO..... hahhh ape aq merapu nih? OK bye.. XD